Maria. 27. she/her or they/them. I'm drowning in Dragon Age and it's gr8.
Sometimes I draw things. I've been posting doodles (and glitchy dragon age screencaps) on twitter, too.
OC inspiration stuff and snippets of writing can be found here.
Sims sideblog is here.
It Will Come Backby Hozier but you’re alone in a cabin in the woods. You hear something coming from outside, almost like a warning, but it’s dark out, and you don’t want to leave to investigate. You can tell that there’s a pack of wolves somewhere in the distance, but you can’t be sure how close they are.
There was a new movie coming out that was a gay romantic comedy about an assassin falling in love with the guy he was supposed to kill. The only thing I remember about it other than the premise was that the assassins supposed victim/love interest was going to be played by Daniel Radcliffe.
A mini series (actually a movie released in chapters) with a similar plot to this actually exists (except it’s not starring Daniel Radcliffe). The two main characters are a hitman and an assassin who meet “by accident” in their free time, and they fall in love, but everything is not what it seems.
Unfortunately, due to pirating and illegal sharing of the movie, the small company who made it only made about 1/3 of the production cost as revenue and they lost their main investor due to that, so hopes for a sequel which was considered are small.
It’s a really good movie, with good directing, writing and acting, so if you’re able to purchase it on Vimeo (link is here), I encourage you to do so, it’s only 12$ if you rent it and 13.33$ if you buy it and it’s more than worth it!
I forgot to say that the movie has subtitles in FIVE languages (English, French, Russian, Vietnamese and Korean)!
The thing about knitting is it’s much harder to fear the existential futility of all your actions while you’re doing it.
Like ok, sure, sometimes it’s hard to believe you’ve made any positive impact on the world. But it’s pretty easy to believe you’ve made a sock. Look at it. There it is. Put it on, now your foot’s warm.
Checkmate, nihilism.
This is a powerful positive message..
I’m literally reading a book right now (Burnout by Emily and Amelia Nagoski) that says this is scientifically sound.
There have been studies done on rats and dogs where they develop learned helplessness in the animals by giving them impossible tasks. Eventually the animals stop trying, even when the task stops being impossible. (I.e. put a rat in a maze with cheese it can’t get to until it develops learned helplessness, then put the cheese somewhere it can get to it and it won’t even try.) But once they show the animals they CAN do something - i.e. physically moving the rat to the cheese - the learned helplessness goes away.
No one can move you to your cheese for you, but the book says DOING something - which they define as “anything that isn’t nothing” can help. Make a food. Work in the garden. Clean a thing. Do a favor for a friend. Call your elected officials.
Knit a sock.
If you feel overwhelmed by existential despair, do something. It doesn’t have to be big. It just has to be anything that isn’t nothing.
It’s okay to be bad at things. If you like drawing, but none of your art is aesthetically pleasing to anyone, keep doing it. If you like singing, but you can’t hit any of the right notes, keep doing it. If you like dancing, but you don’t have a good feel of the music, keep doing it. Don’t stop doing the things that you love just because you aren’t good at them and don’t ever let anyone shame you for it.
